here is the truth.  my mind is swimming.  from here to there and everywhere in between.  the truth is, my life has been a bit out of control.  some of it is my fault and some of the circumstances are beyond me.  i have been having a hard time.  its hard for me to say that, admit and accept it, but, it is the truth.  i have been wrecklessly trying to create order in anyway that I can but it has been backfiring on me and only creating more commotion.  sometimes figuring life out can be mighty tricky.

i have been trying to do a lot of figuring out.  figuring out my life.  figuring out this blog.  figuring out me.  i have no final conclusions or definite answers. it seems to work that way with me.  although i do know a few turns i want to take.

one thing that i’m completly bent on is becoming more me.  i know me pretty well, but sometimes i’m still not so sure how to be me.  i know,  shocking and a little strange.  but the thing is, i like to make others happy.  and in doing so, over the years, i have let go of small pieces of myself along the way.

this space, these blog of loveliness has actually been a place where i have felt found.  over the past few years i have discovered things about myself that i never knew (in a million years i never considered myself creative).  i’ve learned so many new things and found a place where i can create, inspire and find community.  there are two reasons that i started blogging and that was that i love to write and i love to share lovely things.  and friends, it is my goal to stick to that (with the added benefit of making some great friends and finding community).  i’m not sure exactly how that looks or if it will differ from what i have been posting in recent days but i do know that it is what i need to stick to in order to be true to me.  this blogging business has sometimes gotten the best of me.  and really i want it be a place where i share the best from me.

i don’t want to loose myself on the interwebs (besides the occasional pinterest overdose).  i want to share what i find and create.  all i know is that this writer has to write and this finder of lovely things has to share them.  so there it is. i’ll keep to my “la la lovings” and favorite decorated spaces and sharing of any and every lovely thing that just has to be shared.  but you may find a few more photos of life, a few more words from the heart and maybe a day missed here or there because, life just beckons (but i promise there will be some good sharing from it).

life is what is most lovely.  i want to live it.  and of course i want to share it.

but just to be totally clear, i’ll still be posting here regularly (daily is still the goal) and i have some super exciting things planned for this year that i can’t wait to share. so i hope you stick around.  i love the company. (and so there is no misunderstanding, i’ll still be working with sponsors from time to time as they make a lot of great things possible.  i’ve been completely blessed to have made some really lovely relationships with some great companies and great people and I look forward to new connections in the coming year).

and those, lovelies are two of my biggest on my goals for this coming year.

And i always have a few things on my list that make it every. single. year.  like being brave. which, i’m pretty certain it will be on my list all the years of my life.  but if i have a few brave moments or accomplishments each year than i know i moving forward on the journey.  i, of course, have some very specific this and thats, like take trip to england, buy a new camera, get passports for the kids, continue to simplify, cook better meals and so on.  but this is the list that is taped to my desk and that I’m going to try to live :

if you are yet to write out your goals….one thing about resolutions and goals that i’ve learned a long the way is that is not good to write a bunch of “stop doing this, don’t eat that, quit this,” and so on’s.  i find it much more beneficial to be on the adding side of things (see here).  add more greens, take more walks, love more.  yes, it’s good to get into specifics on things but you can’t go wrong with adding the good stuff.

so tell me, what is big on your goal list this year?  i’d love hear from you.

p.s. i think i’m going to loose capital letters….they just seem to be getting in the way.

*photos are of my freshly arranged inspiration board.  pretty interiors make me happy!