do you ever just quit your day? before it can quit you.
i’m learning to give myself permission to do just that.
sitting down for a day, instead of sitting out on life.
when life feels too heavy, why not just drop it? drop everything.
because, sometimes nothing and everything matter all at once.
at once you, all of the sudden, realize that the things you must do for that day, can wait for doing. like snowflakes pack and pile into mountains, in turn they also just melt right into nothing. something and nothing. and, the only thing that really matters is what matters in the deepest parts of your heart. so you stop and take care of what matters all at once. at now. whether it’s loved ones or you. yourself.
the bills will be there tomorrow. boxed macaroni and cheese won’t matter, really. cleaning will only add a short instant of the order you are trying to orchestrate. and, no one needs the post you are planning as much as you need a place to be peace or be at peace.
i quit my day this week. i had 4 hours carved out to write. the thing that usually places peace or unpacks perspective, and i couldn’t carry it. i spilled my coffee, and tears on my computer keys in front of a crowd. so i quit. at first i felt relieved and then i felt regret. regret that i wasted precious time to write. i won’t have time, like that, until next week. i made popcorn and a chocolate smoothie shake and snuck down to my basement and just watched afternoon tv. i did nothing when there was everything. i felt irritated again, at myself, later that night. but, irritation morphed into being grateful for the grace i extended to myself. taking the advice i’d extend to a friend.
so lovelies, don’t be afraid to quit a day. it doesn’t mean you are quitting life. in fact, it’s a guard against that, friend.
when things are too heavy, just go ahead and drop it -all. my faith teaches me that i’m not supposed to be carrying cares around anyways. i’m to cast (throw, HURL, fling) the whole of my cares (my anxieties, worries, all my concerns, once and for all – actually) on Him, for He cares for me (you) affectionately and cares about me (you) watchfully (1 peter 5:7).
here is to a weekend where nothing and everything matter all at once.