do you ever just quit your day? before it can quit you.
i’m learning to give myself permission to do just that.
sitting down for a day, instead of sitting out on life.
when life feels too heavy, why not just drop it? drop everything.
because, sometimes nothing and everything matter all at once.
at once you, all of the sudden, realize that the things you must do for that day, can wait for doing. like snowflakes pack and pile into mountains, in turn they also just melt right into nothing. something and nothing. and, the only thing that really matters is what matters in the deepest parts of your heart. so you stop and take care of what matters all at once. at now. whether it’s loved ones or you. yourself.
the bills will be there tomorrow. boxed macaroni and cheese won’t matter, really. cleaning will only add a short instant of the order you are trying to orchestrate. and, no one needs the post you are planning as much as you need a place to be peace or be at peace.
i quit my day this week. i had 4 hours carved out to write. the thing that usually places peace or unpacks perspective, and i couldn’t carry it. i spilled my coffee, and tears on my computer keys in front of a crowd. so i quit. at first i felt relieved and then i felt regret. regret that i wasted precious time to write. i won’t have time, like that, until next week. i made popcorn and a chocolate smoothie shake and snuck down to my basement and just watched afternoon tv. i did nothing when there was everything. i felt irritated again, at myself, later that night. but, irritation morphed into being grateful for the grace i extended to myself. taking the advice i’d extend to a friend.
so lovelies, don’t be afraid to quit a day. it doesn’t mean you are quitting life. in fact, it’s a guard against that, friend.
when things are too heavy, just go ahead and drop it -all. my faith teaches me that i’m not supposed to be carrying cares around anyways. i’m to cast (throw, HURL, fling) the whole of my cares (my anxieties, worries, all my concerns, once and for all – actually) on Him, for He cares for me (you) affectionately and cares about me (you) watchfully (1 peter 5:7).
here is to a weekend where nothing and everything matter all at once.
Justine
Commented on January 16th, 2015 at 11:26am
Sometimes we need to do just that!
Trina
Commented on January 20th, 2015 at 10:38am
yes!!! xo . t
Jessica Rose
Commented on January 16th, 2015 at 11:34am
I sometimes do this as well…when things just aren’t coming together…there are some things you just can’t force..
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Trina
Commented on January 20th, 2015 at 10:38am
truth! xo. t
dawn
Commented on January 16th, 2015 at 1:35pm
beautifully written x and i have been known to quit, i think it’s a bit like surrender … surrender to all the expectations … have a lovely weekend!
Trina
Commented on January 20th, 2015 at 10:38am
i LOVE this so much! you nailed it… it is surrender. and, sometimes we find exactly what we need on the other side of surrender! thank you for sharing! xo . t
Bianca rollins
Commented on January 19th, 2015 at 1:02pm
I quit my day on a regular basis:).
You are so right, or should I say, scripture is so right…the days that are the hardest are those when I try to be in control of everything. God is so wise to tell us to cast our burdens on him, for his glory and our good. It is so very easy to forget that.
Great post! Thanks for the real-ness and hope your week is going well!
Trina
Commented on January 20th, 2015 at 10:37am
trying to be in control is a real power struggle and sometimes we don’t even know we are struggling or fighting for power. such a process …i’m glad god is patient with me as i’m learning to be patient with myself! xo . t
Kari
Commented on January 19th, 2015 at 1:28pm
So beautiful and thanks for sharing – This post really spoke to me and reassured me that it is ok to take a break every now and then and not get too caught up in things. Love your blog!!
xo,
Kari
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Trina
Commented on January 20th, 2015 at 10:36am
thank you, kari! reassurance is so good! take care! xo . t
Lisa
Commented on May 20th, 2015 at 7:14am
I just found your blog and I had to tell you that you write very beautifully and true. I just quit the day yesterday for a few hours and it felt great. I really needed to do it for me to help me be a better wife, mother and person. Thank you for putting into words what I was feeling.
Trina
Commented on May 20th, 2015 at 9:08am
oh thank you, Lisa. I am having one of those mornings and your words just encouraged me. I probably need to take my own advice and just quit the day :) Give yourself grace today, and I’ll give myself a dose too! xo . t